I know no one will agree with me on this, and no one will do anything about this, here goes. Got back about 2 months ago? A month ago I started The New War quest.
Basically you know that choice you will need to make between the 3 forms of our space mother.
After half a decade of having a hologram for a mother, all I wanted was to have her back.
Guess what, end of the line, and the quest won't let me go until I made a choice. Remember how I said that after half a decade, all I wanted was our Mother back? But yet, with all my paralysis by analysis, I thought to be diplomatic and let her be the current her, maybe. Let Hunhow have his daughter back. I get someone tangible back instead of a hollow hologram voice.
I chose Natah, but deep inside I actually wanted Lotus. She chose that form to save us. She was happy to be in that form. Blah blah you won't care, but I had way more thought processes about this debating within myself.
I have regretted that ever since. Support told me to just change her skin. But she is still NATAH on the screen every time I start a mission, and I know most of you don't notice it and don't care, but I do, and it more than irks me to no end. Don't get me wrong, Natah looks #*!%ing awesome. 3 tiers cooler above Starcraft's Terran announcer. But, where I was coming from was that I had spent all this time trying to finally stop placating to other people over my happiness, and it almost seemed like all my years of work trying to finally put myself first just... went kapoot, to the gutter, with that choice of Natah. So I guess the reason seeing NATAH enrages me more than anyone of you because the choice is the reminder of that.
After a month of continuing to play this game, I am still extremely regretful, and have not warmed up to NATAH on my screen at all. No amount of changing of her skin changes that.
I guess the gist of it is, I don't understand why we cannot change that choice. I know game tells us we can't, but it was holding me hostage until I made a choice. I feel like either it should've gave us a chance to rectify that in a time frame, or replaying it in a time frame allows us to change it or something. Or just be clear what would happen when we are making that choice (like "The announcer will be named NATAH from now on in every mission dialogue and this is not able to be changed" not just "This is permanent"). If DE's afraid of ruining the immersion, they could've at the very LEAST gave us a confirmation screen AFTER you choose and she said the lines "We need strength/We need equal strength and compassion/We need love and compassion; I WILL BE NATAH/LOTUS/MARGULIS" so that we would understand what choosing will do, without ruining the immersion. You can also change the choice to boot before you finally lock it in. So maybe the dialogue (after you click one of the 3 choices) could've been: "We need strength and compassion in equal measure etc., PERHAPS I shall be The Lotus", THEN confirmation dialogue to see if the player wants to lock it in or want a change in their choice.
Again, I KNOW this means jackS#&$ to ya'll. But I'll just put it here because I just feel that strongly about it. I won't lie, part of me feels snubbed because everything but it being "permanent" was vague. And yes, I know "it's just a game", "live with it" and "haha eat your mistakes, idiot" comments are coming, but fact is, I'm still grieving this choice. I wish I could take it back. It represents more than most people can understand, I think when it came to the design around the confirmation could've been better. Either let us change the choice somehow or just inform us better. I want to change my choice so bad you have no idea.
Man, even typing this out made me feel ridiculous and downtrodden at the same time. Thanks for reading, I guess.
I know no one will agree with me on this, and no one will do anything about this, here goes. Got back about 2 months ago? A month ago I started The New War quest. Basically you know that choice you will need to make between the 3 forms of our space mother. After half a decade of having a hologram for a mother, all I wanted was to have her back. Guess what, end of the line, and the quest won't let me go until I made a choice. Remember how I said that after half a decade, all I wanted was our Mother back? But yet, with all my paralysis by analysis, I thought to be diplomatic and let her be the current her, maybe. Let Hunhow have his daughter back. I get someone tangible back instead of a hollow hologram voice. I chose Natah, but deep inside I actually wanted Lotus. She chose that form to save us. She was happy to be in that form. Blah blah you won't care, but I had way more thought processes about this debating within myself. I have regretted that ever since. Support told me to just change her skin. But she is still NATAH on the screen every time I start a mission, and I know most of you don't notice it and don't care, but I do, and it more than irks me to no end. Don't get me wrong, Natah looks #*!%ing awesome. 3 tiers cooler above Starcraft's Terran announcer. But, where I was coming from was that I had spent all this time trying to finally stop placating to other people over my happiness, and it almost seemed like all my years of work trying to finally put myself first just... went kapoot, to the gutter, with that choice of Natah. So I guess the reason seeing NATAH enrages me more than anyone of you because the choice is the reminder of that. After a month of continuing to play this game, I am still extremely regretful, and have not warmed up to NATAH on my screen at all. No amount of changing of her skin changes that. I guess the gist of it is, I don't understand why we cannot change that choice. I know game tells us we can't, but it was holding me hostage until I made a choice. I feel like either it should've gave us a chance to rectify that in a time frame, or replaying it in a time frame allows us to change it or something. Or just be clear what would happen when we are making that choice (like "The announcer will be named NATAH from now on in every mission dialogue and this is not able to be changed" not just "This is permanent"). If DE's afraid of ruining the immersion, they could've at the very LEAST gave us a confirmation screen AFTER you choose and she said the lines "We need strength/We need equal strength and compassion/We need love and compassion; I WILL BE NATAH/LOTUS/MARGULIS" so that we would understand what choosing will do, without ruining the immersion. You can also change the choice to boot before you finally lock it in. So maybe the dialogue (after you click one of the 3 choices) could've been: "We need strength and compassion in equal measure etc., PERHAPS I shall be The Lotus", THEN confirmation dialogue to see if the player wants to lock it in or want a change in their choice. Again, I KNOW this means jackS#&$ to ya'll. But I'll just put it here because I just feel that strongly about it. I won't lie, part of me feels snubbed because everything but it being "permanent" was vague. And yes, I know "it's just a game", "live with it" and "haha eat your mistakes, idiot" comments are coming, but fact is, I'm still grieving this choice. I wish I could take it back. It represents more than most people can understand, I think when it came to the design around the confirmation could've been better. Either let us change the choice somehow or just inform us better. I want to change my choice so bad you have no idea. Man, even typing this out made me feel ridiculous and downtrodden at the same time. Thanks for reading, I guess.
