Fi-le Posted June 18, 2019 Share Posted June 18, 2019 (edited) hi everyone, first of all im sorry for my english, i know is not perfect but I hope this is understandable and i'll try my best to make it understandable. So, how can i start this? i don't know if i have to get to the point slowly or just say it and enought is a lot of time that im thinking about saying it to someone outside me and my family, and after a couple of months of thinking and ...(you'll see it later), i have this feeling that i can't take it anymore and can't keep it to myselft only. I sorry in advise if i'll use some "strong" words, this is a bit of a vent (no bad words/swearing dont worry, but maybe are a bit strong for someone easly impressing). so...6 moths ago i found a lump in my breast, that became really big (i cant post my radiograph obviously XD but immagine about a little cherry that then become a big walnut in a really short time) well if you are thinking about THAT....yeah i saw 4 doctors (and you can immagine where im going for), 3 of them said "naaa it's nothing" or "you are just overreacting" or " that is not THAT, dont think about it, are just your hormones" in a really COLD and I dont care manner, you know like some reddit post about very INTELLIGENT and CARING doctors, but then i went to the 4° doctor that hugged me...ya he HUGGED me, never saw a doctor doing that, and said "honey dont worry, talk to me". after visiting me he said that he did not agree with the prewious doctors and i had to insist that it IS something. so now after "talking loudly" to doctors and my parents and after a lot of exams, well its THAT (sorry for saying THAT instead of the name but i dont wanna say it is a really scary word) but on a positive note is not malicious for NOW, but is a kind that can change at any moment, soooooooooooo ya... the 19° i'll remove it and make some more exams on it, but even if they remove it that will not be the end of the "fight", i have a lot more of those, very little but in that area there , that have to be constantly look up for sudden changes. i did it for letting you know about the situation, maybe is not something interesting or something relevant about the game but is somethingi had to say. obviously someone is thinking "well ok...why did you tell me that" or "those are your own business i didn't want to know that " and is totally fine i did ask myself those questions too. I just had to say it. thank you Warframe for being there before and now that i need to concentrate about something else a part from fear and the all situation. wish me good luck :) oh you know what? i almost forgot about 1 "LITTLE, INSIGNIFICANT" thing... the first 3 doctors were "breast specialists" (google translate say that mammalogy is the word but it does not sound right to me XD) and try to guess what the 4° doctors studied, come on go for it, you will never guess it in a million of years... Spoiler a nutritionist, a dietician (sorry google translate again XD), something that involve food, someone that did study only 2 years of hes life about breast and did left for diet is telling me that those "doctors" wich are "specialist" and did study decades are wrong and he is right... *angry part* Spoiler HOW the F someone become a doctor?!?!?! not 1, not 2 but 3 (plus a lot of other ones that me, my family, and friends, aaaand a lot of other people apparenly have experience) are wrong >_< im angry at them for not listening to me and just talking to me in one of the most cold and far away manner, something that does not bother them, when the 4° doctor hugged me and was just a human being and the day after i saw the first doctor my father said to her (yes was a she and still didn't care a bit) "oh ya my mother did pass for THAT in THAT AREA too"... my grandmother (dad side) did pass because of that!?!?!' WTF? and you said it to a "stranger" NOW and not me long time ago?!!?! i already did not have a great "feeling" with him but now oh boy... sorry, hope it was not too aggressive well, feeling a bit better now...sorry again i'll let you update tldr: found lump, stupid doctors "its nothing", a real doctor (to me) said "no it is something" and boom he's probably right. Edited June 18, 2019 by Fi-le typo 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EquinoxPrime Posted June 18, 2019 Share Posted June 18, 2019 (edited) Heya, sometimes we just need a space to vent. It’s good to hear that you finally got a doctor that listened, but don’t ever be afraid to get a second opinion if you feel that something is off. IMO, some people should not be in the medical care field (also have had negative experiences in that regard). That being said, the doctor said it doesn’t seem to be malignant for now, so please try not to stress yourself worrying over it until it becomes something to worry about. It’s okay to be uncertain about the future, but you’re okay for now. If you want to, you can add me in-game to vent about it some more if you need to at a later date. Here’s hoping the removal procedure and following check ups go well. ❤️ Keep your head up Tenno! You got this. Edited June 18, 2019 by EquinoxPrime oof Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
(XBOX)YoungGunn82 Posted June 18, 2019 Share Posted June 18, 2019 Positive thought and prayers to you and yur fam. Head up, and keep moving forward. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Velaethia Posted June 18, 2019 Share Posted June 18, 2019 Positive thoughts going your way! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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